I really feel that I have no freedom. The ways for me to release my stress is limited from my parents. The limited also become one of my stress now. And the ways for me to release stress is limited again. Are there anyways for me to release my stress? I watch videos, limited by parents. I listen to the songs, don't have new songs and wanna download, limited by whole family.I wanna learn dance, parents not allow. But dance I don't really think I can learn it up.Sleep can help me release stress, but it is impossible for me to sleep all the time. If really want me to sleep all the time to release my stress, better don't bring me to this world. Sleep all the time may cause death as every organs in body stopped. Eat can also release my stress, but I am unable to do that as I don't have money support. WHAT ELSE I CAN DO TO RELEASE MY STRESS?
Should I gone crazy? Should I forget about all of my stress?(it's impossible to me)Should I do nothing and just keep my stresses everyday? Should I tell them to family?(it's impossible to me as family is not my proper rely any more and they will always refute what I said)Should I tell them to friends?(I don't really have friends can listen to my problems)Should I tell these problems to caunseling teacher in school?(I can't tell stranger about my problems)
Now in SMJK Perempuan China Pulau Pinang, I don't really have friends. Yun Theng has her own friends I will just sitting by her side and watch at her to chat with her friends and having fun. Yuen Wei and Ai Shin, they two always have their own world. Joanna, I don't really have topic with her. Mogana, we don't really chat that often. Hui Jhen, different class with me and she will never listen to what I said because she will suddenly come out with her problems and refute my talk and even din't bother what I said.My primary school friends I met again, they have their own friends and din't bother me any more.Ah yong and ah ka have their own study.(also have their own world, seldom bother what I am saying) Tim Yeng, seldom talk to her as she always concentrate on ah yong and ah ka.
My big brother, always define what I talk to him and thing I ask him for help.Always limited my actions.(download show,songs,games)My young brother, become my big brother, limited my actions too as the big brother.My mother, never think about my feeling.(ask me to study Form 6, ask me to do works at home but not the brothers, limited my ways to release my stress, believe to what big brother said about my faults and problems)My father, seldom think and care about me.(ask me to help brothers and mother to do work as they are not at home, din't ask brothers to help me to do works while I'm not at home, listen and believes to my big brother about my faults and problems)Cousin, impossible to listen to me.(always believe to my parents and brothers, refute what I said, din't really listen to my problems)
Why am I appear on this world? Why my parents wanna do these to me? Why I always don't have a friend?( I know that I have bad temper) Why am I always in bad luck? Why am I never be well in everything I do in my life? Why am I don't have freedom that others have?
WHY AM I APPEAR ON THIS WORLD? I WISH THAT I WAS NEVER APPEAR ON THIS WORLD................REALLY..................................THAT'S WHAT I LEARN FROM MY EXPERIENCE.....................................................................................................................................
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